So I have started my new business and at this point I had hoped to have many bookings on my calendar but I have two. I have posted my new business on fb many times and I have sent out emails to the women in my life that I thought for sure would be more than willing to jump up and help and book a party. I got one email back from a "new" friend who is away for the summer but said she would be willing to book a show in the late fall. I know now my next step is to make phone calls and that is out of my comfort zone.
I don't like to be uncomfortable and I don't like to make other people uncomfortable and I know that I will have to step into that zone for my business to flourish. I also know that once I do it I will get better at it and God will bless me abundantly. The problem is....I don't want to do it and I can feel my anxiety growing out of control inside of me...like a vine out of control and it is going to smother me if I don't get control of it.
I also believe that God has sent me tools to use to get control of this. I had a woman call and email me this week that stated that she wanted to speak to me about helping with a reception to be held after church because she is getting married at my church during a regular service. I was left very confused because the whole conversation doesn't register correct in my mind. Weddings during church, receptions during coffee hour, people who call strangers out of the blue???? I am having a hard time calling people that I know and love to have a party where they will earn free merchandise and this woman called me to help with a wedding reception, her wedding reception, out of the blue. This has left me feeling...I'm not even sure what I'm feeling.
I want to be open to hear her, to help her, to learn from her. I want to be the kind of person who can pick up a phone and talk people into things, without being manipulative, of course. Sometimes I think people just want to be asked. I know that at the root of this is rejection. I have always had issues with rejection. My biggest fear has always been that "you" weren't going to like me. I have worked on this my whole life and I believe that I have to give this to God. I probably give this to God and take it back all the time. I am good at giving and taking.
Now at this point I haven't actually spoken to the woman yet. We don't even know each other. I have recieved an email and a phone message. My thoughts are who is this person calling a complete stranger to help with her wedding, how much am I suppose to help. What does God want me to do???? That is the biggest question I have been asking since yesterday. I believe this has to be something from him....So what am I to do with it??? I am praying that when I do finally speak with her God will give me the words that I need because I have no idea what to do? Talking with a stranger about something so personal....Is definately Going Beyond My Comfort!!!
No comments:
Post a Comment